Etched forever in my Heart!

 

This is the picture of Alana Kay that a friend of ours rendered from a photo that we gave.  We had this picture displayed at her funeral.  It was placed right next to her casket.  He did such a beautiful job in capturing Alana so perfectly.  The picture hangs in our living room above our piano.  Everyday we get to see her beautiful self.

A couple days ago my four year old daughter said to me; "Mommy, Alana is sad because she wants to come down from the clouds."  How cute is that?  Out of the mouth of babes.  I asked Aubree where Alana is and she told me she is in heaven.  I also asked her who is with her and she said, God.  We think she is starting to understand that Alana will not be coming back.

 

Monday, December 14, 2009 was the last day that I spent time with Alana, alive.  This was the picutre that I took when I walked in her room after arriving from CT.  She looked so peaceful and sweet that I had to take the picture.  She had just started sucking on her two middle fingers a few days before this picture was taken.  When she woke up she was very excited to see my.  I laid with her in her bed most of the day.  We just snuggled.  Every once in awhile she would caress my face and stare at me.  I did take mental note of what she was doing because she had never before caressed my face or stared at me like she did that day.  I think she new something was going to happen.

Late that afternoon about 5:30pm, Alana was taken to surgery to get the layer of Integra taken off.  I was able to go with her and bring her into the O.R.  Another mental note was taken, Alana did not cry as she was wheeled into the O.R.  All the other times that I had walked with her to the O.R. she cried and would make sure I was right there.  That day she did not cry but, she did make sure I was walking right next to her as they wheeled her on the stretcher.  That was the last time Alana was awake, the last time that I saw her awake.  I believe Alana new she was going to see Jesus in a few days.

 

This is what I had to wear when I walked Alana into the O.R. on Dec 14, 2009.

I will never forget that day, how it began and how it ended.  It was a peaceful day for the both of us.  I am glad that the Lord allowed me to have that special day with my daughter.  God knew what was going to happen, He was in control of this day from the beginning of time.  How awesome is that.  Alana and I were able to color, paint, blow bubbles, sing songs and  snuggle.  That day is etched in my heart forever.  December 14, 2009 is my Valentines Day, my "little sweetheart".

God is so good.

Please pray for my good friend Kasey.  She is having surgery tomorrow.  It is an extensive surgery.  She will be laid up for about a month and has a two year old.  She is going to need God's grace.